Joy In This Journey began in the summer of 2005 as a place where I could use my words. At the time, I was the mother of three young children. Our oldest, Ellie, had profound special needs. Life was consumed with diapers, feedings, medical treatments/appointments/therapies, and repairing the catastrophes created by a rambunctious toddler. I desperately need some intellectual stimulation.

For the most part, in the early years, I shared stories about our life — parenting, parenting a child with special needs, and my hobbies (I love to knit, sew, play the piano, garden, and of course, I love to read and write). Along the way, we added a fourth child, also with some medical issues. So I began to write about things that helped us deal with all the chaos, paperwork, lack of sleep, and insane schedule. Other moms with special needs kids found the blog, so we began to share tips and tricks, and most importantly, encouragement for the long hard exhausting days… and nights. I also have learned better how to laugh at myself and try my hand at humor writing now and then.

Gradually, I began sharing more of what was going on inside — the spiritual dimension to raising a child who was so fragile, the questions I was wrestling with, the dilemmas we faced, lessons I was learning either from personal study or from classes at church or otherwise.

Then Ellie died in the fall of 2008. This blog has become one place to write through my grief. In being open about the pain, anger, depression, and spiritual questions, I hope to encourage others walking through their own valley, no matter what kind it is.