I could barely look at the page she handed me. As soon as she pulled it out, my chest tightened and the skin in my face grew hot. I was pretty sure that meant blotches. How I hated being so easy to read. She described all the benefits the equipment would provide to my daughter,…

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I feel normal. That has not been normal for… years. Last fall I finally acknowledged the stormy fog in which I trudged, halted, sometimes crumbled, constantly denied. It was depression, or for those of you who shy away from psychology, it was a dark night of the soul. My dark night. My soul. “Dark” doesn’t…

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What does it mean to really love God? To love the divine? What does it look like? What does it feel like? How can I, a finite created human being, love a Creator, an infinite Spirit? Does it feel like the love I have for my husband or my children? That love is in spite…

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I’ve always been able to remember songs better than plain-English sentences. If I can sing something, I’ll remember it faster, better, longer. And if I do forget it, as soon as I hear the tune, I can usually bring it back quickly. My children are the same. They hear songs on the radio, in the…

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Welcome to THE SATURDAY EVENING BLOG POST! Elizabeth Esther hosts this monthly linky for bloggers on the first Saturday of each month. We share our latest and greatest blog posts. this weekend from October 2010. I can’t really say this is my favorite, per se, but this month marks two years since our daughter died,…

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My cell phone rang late as I was prepping for a 2-hour dinner and meeting I co-host at the children’s hospital where I work. Where my children are seen. The prefix showed that it was The Call I’ve been waiting for. My stomach inverted as I hurriedly hung up the office phone and answer my…

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