Faith and Doubt

We’re dog-sitting an adorable pug named Bruce. He’s fit right into the family, which is good since he may be with us for a few months. We got our first accumulating snow (though not enough for a snow man, much to the kids’ chagrin). The hospital came to pick up Elli’s medical equipment. (We are…

Even though Halloween is technically the first holiday we celebrated without Elli, it isn’t quite the same. It isn’t a day off and it isn’t one of those where you gather with extended family and eat a festive meal. It’s about costumes and candy and best celebrated with neighbors, I believe. So yesterday was our…

(click photo to see all of it) This probably doesn’t make sense unless someone you have loved has died. But I have to say that even though Elli died one month ago (yesterday), part of me still doesn’t grasp that it really happened. The day we dreaded and fought to keep at bay for 8…

During Elli’s visitation a few weeks ago, someone said to me, “Oh, you don’t have any regrets.” I responded, “Actually, I do.” The assumption that anyone could honestly say they don’t have any regrets seems to me to be naive at best, flat-out-lie at worst. Despite doing the best we can, everyone makes mistakes or…