We lost her before we lost her. The evening the doctors told us that her heart was so deformed, we lost our healthy baby. We received in her place a very different baby, a difficult one, a scary one, a beautiful and infinitely precious one, but we had lost our healthy baby. And the losses…

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The days fade sepia and two-dimensional as the relentless rhythm of keeping five people alive drains me dry. I find myself staring unseeing, trudging numb, shoulders braced hard against lists and calendar squares. my only goal to collapse on my pillow at the end. I lose the big picture in the running kids to lessons,…

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photo © 2006 Robert Scarth | more info (via: Wylio) I’m reading through the Bible in 90 days. It might sound a little crazy – I thought it was too, at first. But after I thought about it, I decided to try it for two reasons – I’ve wrestled with the Bible itself for quite…

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t’s the first Saturday in June, which means it’s time for the Saturday Evening Blog Post, hosted by Elizabeth Esther. This is a monthly link-up where we get to feature our favorite (by our own choice) post of the previous month and check out other’s favs too! Please stop by her blog to sample some…

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He guesses it before I do. The smell aversions, the sitting and staring and not eating, the emotional outbursts. “Could you be pregnant?” Bah. Of course not. I’d know that. But something is different and the blood doesn’t come and I come home early from work with a test. The two lines explode off the…

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It’s summer and we’re finding a new everyday. I haven’t found it yet. While I have many fabulous ideas, I struggle to follow through with them. I’m quite happy to drift rough summer slowly and whimsically, but I have three children who don’t prefer life so slow and random. I’m seeking a compromise — less…

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