…I became a mother. Early the morning of February 26, 2000, I woke up and discovered the contractions I had been dreaming about were, in fact, real. And regular. And then my water broke, right there in our bedroom.
About two hours later, after a beautiful natural childbirth, we held our firstborn daughter in our arms. (Just goes to show you that the style of childbirth has very little bearing on the health of your child.)
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As all first-time parents are, we were totally clueless. But we were more than most, because we had no idea what lay ahead. Our daughter was born with life-threatening heart defects that had gone undetected.
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Our little girl became critically ill in the two days following her birth, spending 7 weeks in the hospital before we brought her home again. You can read more about that here.
Four months and one week ago, Elli lost her battle for life here. This is her first birthday in heaven, and our first celebration without her here. This year we’re keeping things low-key. Everyone has been sick (especially Little Boy), we’ve been dealing with some other crises, and to be completely honest, we’re bone-weary.
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| Elli’s eighth birthday, cake courtesy of Mamaw |
I really don’t know what to do to honor Elli’s memory today, but being together and trying to rest seems to fit best this year. We had all our extended family over last weekend for a get-together and watched some old home video of Elli.
Today, Scott and I are taking the day off work, and after the kids spend the morning at school, we’re going to take them all on a family outing complete with dinner at a restaurant. As the kids grow older, I’m sure we’ll refine this and come up with some good traditions. But this year, we’re just feeling our way and praying for God’s help. And we know that many many dear friends and family are praying for us today too.
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| Elli February 26, 2000 – October 19, 2008 |
Joy, I am on my knees before the Father on your behalf today. I pray that your family celebration of Elli’s birthday is sweet and healing, and also for your rest and restoration and some relief from the weariness.
Praying for you (all of you)always, but especially today. Love, Mom for Mom and Dad
My thoughts and prayers are with you today. My you find strength in Him.
Praying God’s grace is sufficient to see you through this very special day.
praying…
Joy,
Praying for you and your family for strength today, you have been in my thoughts and I have been missing Elli even more today. I hope you got our cards via “big boy’s” backpack today. we love you.
Lesley
I am praying for you on this teary day. I’m glad that your family is doing special things to remember our special girl.
Love you so very much,
Heather
You are all in my thoughts and prayers this week!
My prayers are with you today. I wonder what birthday parties are like in Heaven… Must be beautiful. Rest in Him. Love and hugs to you.
Praying for your family…